my lil’ world

U girls.. Check this
out.
Lately i’ve been
thinkin a lot about girls, women.
Thoughts und ideas
racing fast through my mind, realizing me how gorgeous our gender is.. Do ya think da way i do?
Let’s rewind our memories of my fave
movies und take ‘em as referrences.
Nobody has no idea
bout Tomb Rider, r8? Absolutely so.
Lara Croft is a pretty,
hi class, grace, smart, educated, independent woman.
She is either a
person with strong will, courage, completed with great skill of fighting.
All wut’s in her
reflect a nearly-perfect image of a woman..
If this is so, there
won’t b anyman could resist her, but da problem is she could always reject men
for not being at da same level as she is.
Perfection requires
perfection.
Another movie that
shows girl power is Mr & Mrs. Smith.
Uh huh..again i’m
talkin bout da supersensual Jolie.
Here, she plays as a
lead-assassin workin in professional assassin organization.
(duznt make sense
there’s such organization, though).
She covers her true
identity, even to her husband, and becoming an ordinary woman who has common
job and doin wife’s tasks like preparing dinner and sum kinda that.
Outta wut her husband
know, she’s very skilled und trained of murdering.
From this movie I
could say that even a woman is capable doin assassination as good as men. Wooww..

Girls should really rethink
that we have strength so much more than we ever thought we do.
Many other movies illustrate this theme i’m bringin.
Juz wait 4 da next writin.
Girls, realize this, we’re marvelous.

I
thank God for givin me chance 2 b a part of this incredible life

I
thank God 4 creating every inch of me juz da way I look like

I
thank God that I’m destined 2 b born in complete family

I
thank God 4 having parents & sister who luv me

I
thank God for da talents & abilities I own since I was a kid

I
thank God I have lots of bestfellas who colours my teenage days

I
thank God 4 all of my unpredictable
lucks

I
thank God 4 approving my prayers uncountable times

I
thank God I could walk in da path where I stand now

I
thank God 4  all da happiness I felt

I
also thank God

For
da blue, troubles, & disasters I’ve ever been through

Cuz
I faith, nothing’s happened without reason

I
thank God for my destiny

And
all that have been planned for me

I
thank u God, for everything..

January 14th, 2007
Last nite, i felt too tired to stay awake waitin
for da transition seconds to my nu age.
I didn’t plan to do anythin at nite, since i had
done many things at noon, und that’s why i couldn’t help myself not to rest.
I got slept at 9 after listening to Cassie’s song :
long way to go.
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In half of consciousness, i heard my cellphone
rang, da sound didn’t really disturb me cuz da handset was still attached.
I ignored da noise und continued my sleep.
I didn’t care anymore bout people who try to
congratulate me.
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Knock.. knock.. knock.. knock.. knock.. knock..
knock..
Wut da..?
Sumone knocked my room’s door, it was loud.
I wondered who was knockin’.
I got up from my bed, walked into da door, und
opened it.
Ow My.. I juz couldn’t believe who was standing in
fronna da door.
There’s sum1 sayin “ Happy Birthday Tink.. “ while
holdin a cake with 3 li’l candles flaming..
I was like freezin for 2 or 3 seconds starin at him.
I didn’t remember wut i said to him, i guess i said
“ wu..wut r ya doin here ? “
He juz smiled und asked me to make a wish before
blowin  da candles..
Still in my great surprise, i closed my eyes, i
didn’t make a wish, but i made wishes.. 3 or 4 or even 5 things i mentioned in
my heart, hopin God would make it true..
I opened my eyes, lookin carefully to da cake.
There’s writing on it.
“ Happy Birthday 21st T-tink. If u need a friend
and there r 100 steps, u can take the first step 2 get near me and i will take
all 99 steps 2 b there 4 u. Ur truly.. “
I blew da candles..
Happy Birthday to myself.
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I was extremely surprised, excited, touched as
well..
I didn’t intend to make da nite special, but sum1 successfully
made it for me..
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Thank ya for Doddy, my beluved bestfellow, who has
done such a touchy thing..
Who came to Semarang at 11.30 pm, congratulated me
at 12 , spent da first 1,5 hours of my nu age with me und then went back to
jogja at 1.30 am..
U shouldn’t have to do that, but i really luv wut
u’ve given me..
Thank u.. thank u.. thank u.
U r my best.

so..
it’s been a great pleasure to figure out opinions of people out there bout same-gender-sexuality.
i conclude that most people r so not 2 it.
do u know wut i think bout it?
i guess u guys think i hate " that thing " cuz sum1 i luv lives w/ that.
but i dun. i really dun.
gay or lesbian thing isn’t so wrong in my opinion.
it is both innocent und sinful.
innocent since i call it destiny.
who wants 2 b unstraight, anyway?
no one duz.
sinful for breaking nature’s rule (my own hypothesis).
sumtimes i wonder, is that really a sin?
i ever heard sum1 says:
" it duzn’t matter who u fall into, wut important  da most is u luv! "
if that means u fall into a man or a woman, thats gonna b juz owkay.
u must b proud that u r able 2 luv n hopefully b luved in return.
ha3..
wut a bizarre kind of thoughts..
sounds more like defensive reason.
but i do take it fine.
moreover, my obsgyn lecturer said homosexual & lesbianism r not disorders.
those r variants of sexuality.
so..
i want y’all 2 know i dun mind with that.
da previous screams were only about sudden-shocked-action.
shockin’ no more r8 now.
i still luv that guy -howeva he is- till my dyin day.
=)